Well today I’m feeling like the fat cat in the photo above. Unfortunately, the scale is also confirming that I am indeed FAT and growing steadily (ugh!).
I had a small indulgence last night. Hubby made a big pot of pencil points with a tomato sauce and boneless\skinless chicken breast. I had one small chicken breast (about 150 calories worth) and one serving spoon of the pasta - no idea what the calories were, it was maybe a quarter of a cup, but I estimated high figuring 200 for the pasta and 100 for the little bit of sauce. The rest of the day I had 2 servings of oatmeal (300 calories) and 1 apple (100 calories), plus my one cup of coffee in the morning (50 calories for the sugar free creamor) and water. So my calories were still around 1,000 for the day.
BUT my body decided to just balloon up and by this morning I could feel it expanding especially in my neck, under my arms and upper thighs. Sure enough I hopped on the digital scale (naked of course) and I had gained 3 pounds over night - weight today is now 209.5. ****sigh****
Add this the 24.5 weight gained in Dec (some for no reason before the holidays and 18.5 from the three days I indulged over the holidays - see week 88 for details), plus the 1/2 lb gained last week from a 1/4 c. of chocolate chips and I am totally in Grumpy Fat Cat mood.
I know it’s mostly water weight, especially since I can still feel myself expanding slightly as I’m sitting here typing. It could also be related to the pain (which means there is inflammation also) in my knees and hips from being more active (five times a week I’ve been doing the stairs at work four times for a total of 8 flights up and down).
Knowing it’s water weight only slightly makes it easier deal with. But I’m not going to let my body WIN — I will NOT give up. I will continue to eat healthy, I will continue to drag my butt up those stairs regardless of pain. I will get healthy one way or another. I’ve lost about 90 lbs so far - so I have to keep that in mind too and not let a “minor” set back affect my mood too much.
For now I’m going to focus mostly on just raw foods and mostly veggies - no more oatmeal or grains for awhile. Today I have apples and baby carrots with me at work. Not sure what I will do for dinner yet, probably just going to heat up a bag of frozen veggies since I don’t have much else in the house (except oatmeal!).
My goal for right now is to just get back to my lowest weight so far of 194. 5 (five weeks ago, week 84). I will tackle getting past that barrier once I get there.
I will not let my body rule my life - I will accept myself - I will accept my limitations and imperfections - but dog gone it I will get healthy too, one way or another!
So there you have it - my declaration to the universe!
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January 16th, 2008 at 7:54 pm
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Half Man wrote…
I am no expert, but if you are only 1000 calories a day and plan to cut back, it seems like you aren’t eating enough. I know it’s hard to see the scale jump around like that. Well, you gotta do what you gotta do. I hope it works out for you.
January 17th, 2008 at 1:01 pm
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Lady Rose wrote…
Actually my calories were usually 800 to 900, but past month or so have been about 1000 - which is probably the reason I’m not losing - but shouldn’t be causing a gain either.
My doctor and cardiologist both say keep doing what I’m doing and keep losing weight. Though neither have any advice on how. My doctor just tells me she won’t even discuss with me until I am doing an hour a day of exhausting pain inducing exercise - and that just isn’t going to happen. Just doing the stairs a few times a day is causing me enough pain in my joints. I will check with my cardiologist at the next appointment - but I’m pretty sure she wouldn’t want me doing that much exercise any way - last stress test they stopped it after only a few minutes, I felt fine, but evidently the machine was showing my heart was in trouble.
I’m just going to keep doing what I need to do or at least trying. *shrugs*
January 17th, 2008 at 4:21 pm
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karen wrote…
I admire you for your resolve. Reading about your struggles has really helped me. According to the BMI on-line calculator, I’m now in the ‘normal’ weight category. Yay!
When my sister lost 100 pounds, she found that she needed to mix things up somewhat every 30 pounds or so. What worked initially seemed to be accepted by her body as the new norm after a time and didn’t work as well anymore. It seems to me that that is what you’ve done, too. Good luck and thank you for all the wonderful advice.
January 17th, 2008 at 5:32 pm
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honi wrote…
i wonder if your body thinks it is starving.. maybe u should do a 1200 day then go down too 1000 then back to 1200.. or perhaps a little more than that see if u can shake your metabolism up… it works for me… much luck to u
January 17th, 2008 at 9:51 pm
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January 18th, 2008 at 12:28 am
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IAAdmin wrote…
Your resolve is contagious, great job. I’m a big fan of mixing it up, grains, fruits, veggies, with a little meat. It sounds like you’re on a good course, although the calories do seem low, but each of us is different. Good luck, and I know you’ll keep us posted………………….:)
January 18th, 2008 at 2:16 am
7 Crabby McSlacker wrote…
Wow, it really seems so unfair that you get so few calories to work with. And what a shame that the exercise is so painful.
My problem with stairs is not going up but going back down–really seems to put strain on my knees. I’m sure you’ve tried other exercise alternatives and I’m guessing this is the best one, but it’s too bad there aren’t less painful ways to get your metabolism running a bit higher.
Good for you for not getting discouraged and resorting to eating unhealthy things!
January 21st, 2008 at 11:27 pm
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HelpfulMeg wrote…
I love the cat picture.
1000 calories is pretty low…maybe you can eat an extra 200 of celery a day?
Also, taking glucoseamine tablets can help with joint pain (or visiting an orthopaedic physician to see if they can help).
Finally, I suggest swimming for exercise. It won’t hurt your joints as much but will give you a great workout. (I know wearing a suit when you feel “fat” isn’t much fun but take a friend and go at a time when less people will be around).
Also, just walking around, not just up and down stairs but a half an hour walk every day after supper will help.
Good luck with your goal, don’t get discouraged.
January 22nd, 2008 at 10:09 am
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Lady Rose wrote…
Thanks every one for stopping by and the words of encouragement and advice. I’m definitely determined and will stick with it no matter what.
Meg, I’m hoping I can get the pain under control and perhaps when the weather is a bit warmed in the spring add in walking. For now the stairs are at least a way for me get some activity every day and build up the habit of doing something. The pain is from arthristis, there is only so much that can be done about it, I usually just take a ton of aspirin. Swimming is a great exercise - but I can’t swim, and joining a YMCA isn’t in my budget right now - so swimming isn’t really an option for me.