It’s Friday which is always great, and we are going to see the Harry Potter movie this afternoon (very excited), Saturday we have tickets to see High School Musical (on Ice I think or something), Sunday I am having a wonderful business meeting first thing in the morning with my co-author (totally awesome!).

All great things – but for some reason I feel kinda in a funk. I think I’m too busy and too scattered with so much to do, that I am not allowing myself enough time to actually enjoy all the good stuff. It’s not a bad funk, but I am feeling a bit stressed and overwhelmed.

The good thing is I am taking notice – so I can adjust and refocus. Underlying all the good stuff is the nagging mountain of stuff I ignore until it hits a crisis – like getting the house organized, zillions of projects I’ve put off, boxes that need sorting – (I hold on to way to much junk) – I need to make room in my life for time to clear out STUFF. Part of my journey to getting healthy is not just about the food and exercise — because the underlying issues are at play in all aspects of one’s life. So I need to stop procastinating and schedule time to JUST DO IT in other areas of my life too – I need to put my junk on a Diet! and pare down the size of that mountain of boxes.

I just haven’t figured out how — after working all week, I prefer quiet weekends, I don’t usually get them. When I do plan a weekend for cleaning and sorting, etc. something always comes up and it gets postponed. Some how I need to figure out how to get it done in mini time spans — I prefer setting aside a whole day, so I can work some, rest my aching joints, work some more – then end the day with a nice shower and relax. It is too huge a job for me try to figure out how to do a half hour at time, but some how I have to.

I can never find anything, anything new brought into the house disappears within a day or two (I swear I live inside a black hole!), the mail is overflowering on three different flat surfaces, (junk mail needs to be outlawed!), I haven’t been able to get past the mountain of stuff my hubby piled in front of the door to garage in months – so sorting the floor to ceiling boxes in gargage is impossible (they have been there since we moved in 5 years ago).

My biggest problem is even if I sort I have no place to put anything that we want to keep – we have very little storage space (no attic, no basement). I always wanted a shed for out back for at least the big holdiay decorations, bikes, etc. But one obstable we found out two weeks ago – we need a survey done (cost several hundred dollars) in order to have a small shed put up in the backyard – which is just ridiculous! And second – NO STORE that sells sheds provides any help putting it together! So even if we buy one – we have NO way of assembling it.

These same frustrations have hounded me for decades just in different forms — I am determined to find a way to over come this once and for all. I don’t expect nor do I want a totally organized house – but I feel like I am drowning — this underlying mess and junk can be really draining and makes everything take so much longer to get done – and totally contributes to being in a funk at a time when I should be bouncing up and down with excitment.

Well this turned into more of a rant then I expected. I’m sure by the time I see the movie and have fun this weekend I’ll be back to my usual perky self!

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