Fatblogging Update – It’s been officially one week on a diet (eating healthier and less calories).

***drum roll***

Weight 294.5
Weight gained 1 lb

Daily Calories were 800 for 5 days, 1100 for 1 day, and 900 1 day
Overall I had a pretty good week, and I didn’t cheat once — the only reason I’m not in tears about gaining 1 lb is because I’m still in a bit of shock. I plan on blaming the water pill the doctor put me on a week ago, it must be working in reverse.

My husband keeps saying – your body has to adjust, it takes time, etc. etc. etc.  I know he means well, and I know is he totally 100% supportive of me, but emotionally I get frustrated and ended up yelling a bit just to vent. I had a brief melt down and ranted a bit about how I refuse to be in denial just because it would make me feel better so STOP trying to make me believe in lies, how in the first few weeks of dieting it is SUPPOSE to be the easiest time to lose and that eating LESS calories is SUPPOSE to result in at least some weight loss, and I must be some freak of nature and will never ever lose weight.

After a brief stomping of feet and mini temper tantrum, sanity returned and I turned my attention back to my healthy eating plan and focused on my goal – getting healthy, no matter what size I am and no matter what the scale says.

I picked up a measuring tape this weekend.  I don’t have measurements from the start of day 1 last week, but one week of dieting won’t make that much difference so I’m sure these measurements are the same as it would have been last week.  I don’t plan on taking my measurements that often (most likely I won’t take them again until my one year anniversary).  So here there are – my super size results with the measuring tape:

Measurements chest 54″ (46″ under breasts), waist 47″, hips 63″
(left upper arm 19.5″; right upper arm 19″)
(left upper thigh 34.5″; right upper thigh 35″)

If I focus on the measurements to much, I get really depressed and just want to give up. I have an easier time distancing myself from the number on the scale and not taking it so personal. Some how the measurement numbers are harder to put in perspective. But I have to keep my focus on the long term goal – health not size. The numbers are merely a guideline not a reflection of who I am.

I handled temptations this week very well. Twice this week I got treats for the family and did not indulge. First was ice cream and fudge from a local shop – I did not have even a lick! Second was soup in a bread bowl to go, with chocolate chip cookies from Panera’s (my daughter had gone last week on a school trip and loved it so we stopped on the way home from errands to get lunch for her and hubby). I did have one small bite (half the size of my thumbnail) of the bread because she was so excited about how yummy it was and wanted me to taste it.

Sunday I had a bowl of air popped popcorn with 0 calorie butter-flavor spray while recovering from planting herbs on the patio and watching part of the Ghost Hunters marathorn. The calories fit into my limit for the day (I had only 800 calories for the day) – but nutritionally it didn’t really add anything of value. It did, however, help with the urge to snack and it felt special so I didn’t feel deprived about not having any of the lunch I had brought home for the famiily (soup, bread, and cookie from Panera’s). I figure sometimes I have to take care of the emotional needs as well as the nutritional ones. I know food for me is a like drug to handle stress and other issues, and I am working on breaking that connection – but in the mean time when I’m feeling vulnerable I will have something healthy and low calorie rather then reach for my usual high carb fatty drug (food) of choice.

I had some mild urges to eat during week, but no real cravings. The urges were mostly at night, when I was tired and wanted a bit of “comfort” food at the end of the day. But I wasn’t hungry, so it was definitely manageable.

Hubby did the shopping this week – so there are a few bags of cookies on the counter, but at least there are bananas too. I didn’t have the heart to look in the refrigerator to see if there is any fresh salad mix for my lunches, but if not I know there is a little left over at least for Monday’s lunch. I will just stop at the store on my way home tonight. Sometimes I hate having to deal with junk food being around, especially when I haven’t lost anything after being so good. I feel like what’s the point, if I eat junk at least it tastes good and if I gained I would know why. My daughter is not a big junk food fan, she is happy with fruit and frozen yogurt. So there really is no reason to have it around. On the up side though, hubby rarely closes the packages or puts them in a zip lock, so they will go stale very quickly if I don’t bother to do it for him. Hopefully, in time, he’ll buy less of this stuff. No matter how much pain I’m in with my back and feet, I’m going to have to try and do more of the grocery shopping to make sure I have what I need in the house.

I can do this – I know I can. One day at a time, one week at a time, one choice at time.

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