Weight 276.5 (gain 3 lbs) It could have been worse. I had Chinese take out for dinner last night, and even though I didn’t have much, I usually gain a lot (most likely from the sodium). This weekend is the last for eating three small meals a day before starting on yet another new food plan (very low in fat and calories, no sugar, etc). Since I’ve been “off” my usual 800 calorie a day food plan (since late Jan. 08) and eating three small meals a day I have managed to gain almost all the weight back (yet again) – my starting weight May 1, 2006 when I began Diet Pulpit was 293.5. I managed to reach 194.5 lbs in Week 84 (just before the holidays 2007), and from that point on I stopped shedding pounds no matter what I tried and even though I was barely eating the rapid weight gain started, till I finally gave up and went back to eating 3 small meals a day. I won’t bore you with the retelling of the saga of doctor visits and their lack of help – they basically tell me to eat less (even though I was only eating 800 calories a day).
You can see the whole tale, Weighin Summary - list of each weeks weighin weight that I’ve kept from week 1 to now.
I have lost track of how many times I have done this – beginning when I was 13 years old trying to lose 5 to 10 lbs (I was 130ish and wanted to be 120ish). But over the past few decades I’ve lost 75 to 100 lbs again and again, to end up hitting a brick wall, gaining for no reason, gaining back even more, giving up and then trying again. At least this time I haven’t gained back more pounds then when I started.
The plan for now is to enjoy the weekend with my family and celebrate my 17th wedding anniversary with my hubby (Sept. 1). Starting Sept. 2 I will once again go back to 800 calories a day – mostly following the Rice House Diet guidelines. Last time though this wasn’t working, possibly because it allows for too much fruit (which has a lot of natural sugar).
If that doesn’t work then I’ll try a combo of protein power (80 calories for 20 grams of protein), lots of green leafy vegetables (no fruit) - which is basically following the Medifast plan but using a whey protein product instead of the soy protein used in Medifast. When I tried Medifast in the fall of 2007 I ended up not shedding any pounds and even gained a few – the medical staff was completely stumped (everyone on Medifast loses a ton of weight easily!) and the only thing I could think of for why it failed for me was perhaps my body just doesn’t react well to soy.
(NOTE: this is the calorie level that all medically supervised diets follow, and yes I’ve followed it before and had it looked over before by various doctors who all tell me it is just fine)
I can give up food, that is not a problem, cravings and temptations I can resist without even blinking an eye. What my biggest hurdle is going to be is hunger. I get cranky, moody, and have to really struggle to keep my mind off my tummy rumbling. But 40 years of trying to shed pounds over and over and over again – I know for a fact that about 1000-1100 calories is about all my body can tolerate and maintain (anything over that and I gain), so to shed pounds I have to get down to at least 800. I’m going to stay focused and keep positive no matter what. I haven’t been able to whip up a whole lot of enthusiasm yet for this new, fresh start – but hopefully by next week I can at least manage a little. But ethusiams or not, I have to get back to iron will control or I’m just going to keep expanding.
I want to be able to walk from my car to my desk at work without being out of breath. I want to be able to go places and get around without being in extreme pain all the time in my joints. I want to wake up in morning with my face being blown up like a giant water balloon. And the only way I can ever hope to achieve these goals is to treat food like an addictive drug and stay away from as much of it as possible.
Health and happiness, Lady Rose
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